It's not an existential question, like the one shakespeare put in Hamlet's mouth or the one which was answered as, "I think therefore I am." [and we all have heared that the responder stoped thinking in 1650, and he is believed to be no more.]

Far from that! It's about, "how I want to be" or.., "who I want to be."

...Believe me, answereing this one is a hell of the challenge. ;) :D :P